This silence kills me
Every reverberation crumples my heart------------
This requiem of insanity pierces thru my bones and flesh
My mouth and fingertips shake at the thought of them moving
As if every fiber of my being is being imbued to a single syllable
--And finally when a word is released
You look at me and I see your quizzically contorted eyes
Seconds of agony, frustration and regret pass-------------------
Your lips and your voice box vibrate my air passages unclog again and my diaphragm ascends
But I know--------
-------------Inevitably
My diaphragm would descend again and my throat would constrict and my heart would pound and my palms would sweat and my knees would wobble and my ears would ring and my eyes would stream----
So long as this wall of silence
that kills me
stands and
remains------------------------------------------
